gemmag's Cancer Blog

May 7, 2008

Prolonged >.<

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So my sister a while back, the beginning of last month went to FL with some friends because it was one of the guys graduation presents. She comes home early all roasted like a little lobster and sick. I thought “Okay she’s in her room, the germs are pretty much confided to infest that room but nothing else”

Then she comes out to roam about the house! At this time I’m thinking this “Oh man, my resistance is so low from chemotherapy that I can catch the love bug from a pile of gross trash.”

She isn’t very good at the whole covering her mouth thing. I miraculously avoided it.

Thennnnn my mother gets sick. The thoughts I was thinking. “Well, later semi-healthy Gemma! I’ll see you in about a month and a half.”

Boy was I right, now I have a lung full of the gross stuff and I’m on antibiotics and chemo is pushed back. Which sends me into a slight panic because “what?... noooo don’t prolong this! I’d like my life back please!”

Even though I forget what a normal life is like.

The X-ray technician got slightly pissy with me for not telling her I had a port in my chest. -_- I’m sorry I forgot to tell you. You asked if I was pregnant not if I had cancer. But eh. It’s become such a normal way of life that this disgusting quarter sized piece of metal is something that I MUST have been born with.

I’m still in denial that I have cancer and I have to go through this again. Does that even sound plausible?

Apparently it is.

Agustana – Sweet and Low
Anywhere you go, anyone you meet
Remember that your eyes can be your enemies
I said hell is so close, and heavens out of reach,
But I ain’t giving up quite yet,
I’ve got too much to lose.

The rain is gonna fall, the sun is gonna shine
The wind is gonna blow, the waters gonna rise
She said, when that day comes look into my eyes
But no ones giving up quite yet, we’ve got too much to lose,

Hold me down, sweet and low little girl
Hold me down, sweet and low and I will carry you home,
Hold me down, sweet and low little girl,
Hold me down

Posted on May 7, 2008 at 8:09:57 AM by Gemma ( Prolonged >.<, 2 comments)

Okay so the tattoo is awesome!

When I got diagnosed I asked my daughter to draw me a survivor tat. She came out some time later with a roadrunner picture, I asked “whats that?” She says, “you have wrecked motorcycles, been stabbed, been caught in a house fire and have survived cancer and nothing seems to kill you, kinda like road runner.” It now covers my left forearm.

Tell the xray tech to get a grip! Like you have nothing else on your mind!

Keep us posted and know your being prayed for
Mac

Posted on May 7, 2008 at 1:36:13 PM by rigidridr

Yes your denying you have cancer is what makes you strong. Why would anyone want to really admit that there was anything wrong with our bodies. That is what isn’t natural. You have been through hills and valleys and yet you come back fighting like a warrior. You share your world with us folks here at the blog and that is just about as brave as you can get. Keep up the positive vibes, we love your words. Weezie

Posted on May 9, 2008 at 6:25:53 AM by weezie