gemmag's Cancer Blog

February 17, 2007

Constantly hungry

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Famished even, it must be the steroids. It’s excellent that I have an appetite since both chemo drugs make me lose that and a lot more then I’d like to. My mom is supportive… I mean like holding out her arms full of food. I feel like a pig. But I don’t look like one. I fit into my “skinny” jeans for the first time today. I bought them last year size 9, they were my goal pants. I lost weight of course but not how I suspected. I felt good about myself minus the fact I was eating so many pickles and drinking so much high fat chocolate milk it’s really unbecoming for a young lady like I.

My boyfriend, Zachary. He lives in Alabama while I’m all the way up here in Pennsylvania. I bought him a webcam for V-day so we could “see” each other more often. He has yet to see me with my fuzzy head -.-. I know he won’t mind and he’s been supportive and very okay with everything like this but it’s just a personal thing that I can’t quite put my finger on.

So… I found my dress, a very cute 50’s style dress, a black one with red cherries and bright green stems. It’s also a size 9. I’m hoping that I can squeeze myself into it and still look decent. Then have my sister take a few pictures for him and probably a few to post here as well. Without the wig, it just makes it seem a little more comfortable. Like sending him those pictures will be a buffer, not for him but for me.

I miss him dearly. Hopefully I’ll get to see him before May.

Posted on February 17, 2007 at 11:14:58 PM by Gemma ( Constantly hungry, 2 comments)

Gemma…you are beautiful, don’t forget that.

Posted on February 19, 2007 at 7:30:48 PM by tanya

Mom’s are good to have around. Bless her heart.

Hug Sherri

Posted on February 23, 2007 at 4:49:57 PM by karlak