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gemmag's Cancer Blog
February 12, 2007
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Well today rather… And look I’m still up. Not able to sleep; I don’t feel worried or frightened, but maybe in the back of my mind there are things going on that I don’t know about.
It’s the 6 hour day as far as I know. The hospital didn’t call today to say “yes/no” on whether I was able to receive the treatment, so I’m waking up in about 5.5 hours to a blizzard that’s worse then the one that happened in 93’ up here in the north east. I’m going to be one cranky child I’ll tell you that much. At least I don’t have to wear my wig. I mean, not that I HAVE to wear it at all but it’s just a little more comfortable when there are other women in the room who are also wearing scarves n’ such.
The amusing thing is, there is another woman named Gemma I met last time who also has ovarian cancer. She handed me a prayer. And I do love God but this prayer was a little bit morbid for my taste, it basically said “You deserved this, but you are strong.” I like the second part of that description but I don’t believe that anyone deserves this O.o just an odd and very negative prayer. Probably from the Old Testament times. Back in the day where if a married woman looked at a man she couldn’t touch earthen ware pots for a month. Something bizarre like that.
Okay, rambling and my typing skills are not at their prime at 1:30 so that’s my queue to get some sleep… Hopefully.
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Thanks for your support -
hi gemmag ijust want to tell you i will pray for you tomorrow.
you are so strong you are a real survivor.
That is a terrible prayer! Yikes.
I have a cousin named Gemma. She is awesome.
YOU DO NOT DESERVE THIS! YOU DO NOT DESERVE THIS! YOU DO NOT DESERVE THIS! No one does.Good luck today… and good luck with the snow. We are getting a “wintery mix” in Philadelphia. Riding my bike to work was a bitch this morning. But I do it anyway… it reminds me of how far I’ve come since I was in treatment. Soon you will be doing amazing things too! Stay as strong as you are. You deserve the good things that will come!
Ok, that prayer sucks…hate to say it. Don’t even for a SECOND start to think that you’re being punished for something done in this lifetime (or the last!)That’s crap!
Cancer JUST HAPPENS! We could all spend the rest of our lives trying to figure out WHY, but what’s the point?
Your faith will keep you strong, but don’t go down that very out-dated road of thinking you’re being punished, or you somehow deserve this shit. (sorry, but I get VERY angry when I hear about religion going in the wrong direction)
Let us know how today went! My treatments got progressively better…I think my body was getting accustomed to it, and my mind didn’t panic so much after realizing it was going to be ok.
Go Gemma! Stay strong!
Tanya