gemmag's Cancer Blog

February 9, 2007

Children n' things

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Ack! 19! I know but I’ve always been one of those girls that is geared toward a perfect family with a white picket fence with lush green grass and perfect shrubs in the front yard, maybe even a yard gnome or two. (Ewe I know sickening :D)

Since I’m not attending college at the moment, I get up early and there is nothing on TV. I’ve shied away from HGTV; the arts , crafts and impossible kitting patterns are a thing you can OD on after a while believe me. So TLC is the new morning entertainment, all there is on from about 8-11 are shows about babies. It’s somewhat depressing now. Not saying I’m totally at a loss here. One ovary is more then enough to compensate for the one that’s been removed. It’s just a fear, and I feel rushed in a way. I don’t want to have children in my 30’s but then again I’m almost exactly a year away from being 20 and I intend to find me a suitable man sometime within the 20’s time frame haha. Now that I’m writing all this out, I think I’m a little nutty. I know things like this can’t be planned, you can’t rush a wedding or even an engagement and let’s not talk about the idea of love, that can’t be rushed or slowed as far as I know. I’m just so disgustingly future oriented… or maybe it’s that I have too much time to think.

I’ll try discovery channel tomorrow, a documentary on giant sperm whales won’t be as detrimental and thought triggering.

Posted on February 9, 2007 at 11:03:42 PM by Gemma ( Children n' things, 1 comment)

I watched law & order a million times when I was sick. It avoided the baby shows at all costs. I know how you feel about the one ovary…

Try shutting the tv off once in a while. It isn’t good for you. That said, I’m on my way to watch some tv right now. ugh. It is an addiction.

Posted on February 10, 2007 at 10:10:52 AM by slockwooclimbs