gemmag's Cancer Blog

May 7, 2008

Prolonged >.<

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So my sister a while back, the beginning of last month went to FL with some friends because it was one of the guys graduation presents. She comes home early all roasted like a little lobster and sick. I thought … More…

Posted on May 7, 2008 at 8:09:57 AM by Gemma ( Prolonged >.<, 2 comments)

May 4, 2008

My hair :(

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“Minimal hair loss” my ass.

/sigh what a let down. I have a big bald spot where my bangs should be. Now to go get it all shaved off… again. More…

Posted on May 4, 2008 at 12:58:17 PM by Gemma ( My hair :(, 3 comments)

May 1, 2008

Wow

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I got tons of comments on my last post. Each one really was just a notch bumping me up the “I’m okay” meter in my dizzy little head.

Thank you, and I must say that Samantha’s comment really shifted my perspective. … More…

Posted on May 1, 2008 at 10:33:07 PM by Gemma ( Wow, 3 comments)

April 28, 2008

Sorry, I'm alive

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A lot has happened. But I haven’t been able nor had the desire to crawl towards the computer.

I’m sick, ugh. I mean, sleeping 19 hours a day sick and have no want to do anything else. Now I have a … More…

Posted on April 28, 2008 at 2:51:46 PM by Gemma ( Sorry, I'm alive, 7 comments)

April 11, 2008

The first went like this;

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Anxiety -> Nausea!

Then I laid there for about 3 hours. Which wasn’t bad at all. This time they are a lot shorter and not 4-6 hours.

I got in the car. Felt sleepy but for the first time in weeks my … More…

Posted on April 11, 2008 at 5:11:24 AM by Gemma ( The first went like this;, 4 comments)

April 5, 2008

A letter to God

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No matter how much I feel I’m falling away from God, there is still a sliver of light. Me being the mini princess of wit, I wrote… no thought him a letter out loud. Where? In the shower, I used … More…

Posted on April 5, 2008 at 9:53:51 PM by Gemma ( A letter to God, 6 comments)

April 1, 2008

So I freaked a little bit

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Wow I can feel the anger seething from that digital post… hm…

Later that night Zachary called; once again I had fallen and he picked me back up. I was able to sleep from 2-4. Then I got up sobbing … More…

Posted on April 1, 2008 at 7:50:32 AM by Gemma ( So I freaked a little bit, 5 comments)

March 28, 2008

Results pushed back?

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They said they’d call me yesterday or today. I’ve held out for too long. I’m in such distress right now. I can’t stop crying.

Tuesday?! How can I wait that long when every time I look down at my stomach … More…

Posted on March 28, 2008 at 10:52:27 PM by Gemma ( Results pushed back?, 4 comments)

March 24, 2008

@Tanya

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Tomorrow is basically the day that my fears are confirmed. I’ve been praying it’s something else, I hope it is. Right now all I know is that it’s a grapefruit sized ball that’s pushing everything else out of the way … More…

Posted on March 24, 2008 at 11:31:34 AM by Gemma ( @Tanya, 2 comments)

March 23, 2008

Umm rare cell A?

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I think it’s called. Anyways whatever it is, it’s faster then last time. I swear it grows a mesurable 1/2 at least per day. Thank goodness Tuesday is almost here because I think it’s starting to crush my kidney, it’s … More…

Posted on March 23, 2008 at 3:44:10 PM by Gemma ( Umm rare cell A?, 2 comments)